Back in November is when I really started noticing it. I had passed my one year anniversary of transitioning from a fast paced, on my feet position doing merchandising and stock for a busy retail store, back to office life. My wardrobe wasn’t tight, I kept telling myself, I just wasn’t comfortable in them anymore. Maybe I just needed new things. Shoes that I’ve had for years just weren’t right anymore. And suddenly, I noticed that even my ring just wasn’t sitting on my hand comfortably anymore.
I started doing yoga a few times a week. I’m busy, I’m stressed, and hell yes half an hour a day is too much to commit on a regular basis to physical activity. I have a Misfit step counter, and while I don’t hit 10k steps a day often, I always hit at least 6k, so what’s the big deal? Knowing that I wasn’t going to up my physical game, I made a mental commitment to pay attention to what I ate, but realistically, I ate well. January of 2017 I committed to cutting down refined sugars, and ‘junk food’, and anything heavily preserved, and I had committed hard. The food I ate was nutritious and nourishing and well balanced, so I kept giving myself a pat on the back.
In January of this year, the first of the month, I started calorie counting. I wasn’t expecting to see progress of casual yoga in a few months, but I wanted to see if I could pin point food behaviour trends. I found a few, started making some changes, but I still wasn’t mentally satisfied with what I was doing.
Finally frustrated enough, and unsure what I could do to make and motivate progress, I bought a scale. I knew I was a little fluffy around the edges, and that I had let my muscle and tone melt away, but how bad could it be? When I was going to the gym regularly, I kept a solid weight between 132-138lbs, a healthy, strong and muscled weight for my height. In my mind I was pretending I was 140, that there was no way I could be much more than that.
On January 17th, I stepped onto my brand new scale, and my life changed. I was 148.8lbs. I stepped off the scale. Stepped back on it. The number didn’t change. I took out the batteries, and blew on them. Tried again. I was naked and just shy of 150lbs, the heaviest I have ever been in my entire life.
I’m sure some of you are thinking how that isn’t such a big deal, that isn’t a big number. That if I was comfortable seeing 138lbs, ten pounds more isn’t so bad. I am five foot four, with what is considered a ‘small frame’. Outdated BMI charts have that weight teetering on obese. Even updated ‘Smart BMI’ says that weight is just a titch too much. I was in the 130’s when I was weight lifting. When I just did yoga and cardio, I was around 125lbs. When my shock subsided, I knew I needed to make a change, immediately.
That’s where Asana Rebel comes in.

The app had been advertised to me, via targeted ads on Instagram. I had looked into it a few times, I had downloaded it but never done any of the workouts. It had a few free to use routines, but for a monthly, yearly or one time fee, you could unlock the rest of the routines, as well as a set of programs, varying from 4 – 8 weeks, with a variety of fitness targets, like fat burning, balance or relaxation. On January 17th, I signed up for the Fat Burn I program(I know the photo above says I completed the Bikini Body, I think the app glitched out as I kept swapping it between phones when mine died). Last week, I finished it.
Asana Rebel is not your mom’s yoga. The routines and daily recommended flow exercises are simple, and like the programs, have a variety of targets, and vary in length, between 6 – 25 mins. Longer routines (15+ minutes) have a short warm up and cool down, which I appreciate. The programs on the other hand, are nothing short of a challenge. They vary between 24 – 30 mins, and include a dedicated warm up and cool down, with a savasana at the end. The program is a vinyasa styled yoga, so you spend from the start of the routine to the start of savasana moving.
It has been a hell of an eight weeks, doing this program daily. I usually start sweating before the warm up ends. I huffed and puffed, and pulled ham strings over extending in frustration at not being strong enough, flexible enough, especially in the first week. I have lost more of my eyelash extensions to my yoga mat than I’m comfortable admitting. Yet, I survived it.
In eight weeks, dedicating to working out seven days a week, I only missed two work outs. I lost eight pounds, putting my ‘smart BMI’ in the high end of normal, but normal nonetheless. I am back to doing yoga everyday, and most days, I do it twice a day. It turns out, in the evening alone, I have approximately 45 minutes to dedicate to my physical health. Couple that with a morning routine, and there are days that I do an hour and a half of just yoga. I can’t decide how ‘different’ I really feel, but I know I’m stronger.
At the end of the program routines, the sweet voice leading you says, “Today’s workout was a challenge, but you did it. Keep coming back, because the more you practice, the easier it will get.” I never felt like the program got easier, but the routines in the app that I did to supplement and compliment have gotten easier, and more fun. I’m taking this week off from a program, and starting a new one again Sunday. I still have work to do, but I’m happy to take it easy, and take it slow to get myself back to where I want to be, and yoga is just something that makes me, and my body happy.
Until next!
Well done Cass Elle! Your work has been inspiring! Here’s to capturing all those fitness goals ❤
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